Summer of 2010
Gone before I knew it had ever happened.
One moment tossing my cap
in the air and celebrating
thirteen years of hard work finally done.
The next, packing the last of my bags
into the back of my trunk
saying goodbye to my mom
and getting ready to not see her for
three weeks straight
How can a girl be expected
to grow so much
in one summer?
Stop being a kid and
start being an adult
stop relying on Mom for everything
she’s a car ride away
and you’re at the adult table now.
It is not the real world I am prepared for.
I still have a child’s impulse,
I have to understand that I have a future
greater than what my grades are.
And I want to go back
when the going gets tough
to when life’s biggest responsibility was
not losing my library books
and remembering to feed the dog.
But that is not
what is expected of me.
I am told to be an adult
And told to act like one
So I pretend
that I know how
to be an adult
Pretend that the summer of 2010
taught me to grow up.